I still feel a little in shock. I don’t know what it is about this baby. Perhaps it is the pandemic and that we just did a move. Or maybe it is that I had so many pregnancy tests that came back negative before this? Regardless, it is so wild and equally SO exciting.
Were we trying? This was a common question because of the age gap and I’ll explain : ) For the first two years, we were both pretty happy with one kiddo. Honestly, Parker was such an easy baby for the most part and Tyson and I had so many things (work + life related) that we wanted to do. Our life changed, but it didn’t turn into Parker’s world. Parker fit perfectly into ours and we loved that. As Parker got a bit older though, he started asking a lot of questions. Like, why don’t I have a brother or sister? Meanwhile, I started feeling like I wasn’t done having kids. I started to get nervous that if we waited too long we would miss the opportunity and I would regret not having another. So, about 2.5 years ago we stopped being careful. Now don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t using ovulation kits and timing it. We really just said, if it happens, it happens. And if it doesn’t, we are just grateful to have one. But when Parker had his half birthday this year (he turned 5 1/2 on July 4th – that is how I remember so well- ha!) we realized it was getting to that point where it the gap was getting to be a lot bigger and I didn’t want to keep living in this limbo state of are we or are we not going to have another. So, we basically just said if it doesn’t happen in the next 3-4 months, we are closing the door.
I’m such a big believer in timing. Earlier this year, there were a few months where I finally tracked my ovulation and did all the things to put my best effort to making a baby and it just felt so forced. We stopped that quickly because it didn’t feel like being in love, you know? We call Parker our love baby because we were just SO in love when we had him. And I know exactly when he was conceived because it was the first time we didn’t use protection. I know, TMI, but it is what happened.
Anyway, I stopped tracking things and just focused on Tyson and I and of course, about a month later I get pregnant. I can’t even tell you how many pregnancy tests I have taken over the last 2 1/2 years… I couldn’t believe it when this was positive.
How has this pregnancy been so far? I first took a test because I was dragging a bit when I’d go for a run. I just felt a little more wiped than usual. That test must have been too early though, but it showed a subtle second line on it and I remember going GAHHH! Maybe!? And then a week later, still no period and definitely tired. I took a test and it was positive!
Overall, I was definitely a bit more tired than I remember being with Parker, but no nausea thankfully. I will say, I had some major mood lows though. It was around 8 and 9 weeks where I was just tired and not in the mood for anything. Nothing brought me joy, nothing felt normal. I don’t remember that at all with Parker, so this took me by surprise.
Oh and then let’s not forget shingles… that was SO painful. I couldn’t believe that happened, but it was a huge reminder to me to sloooooow down. Other than that, I really can’t complain. I’m in my second trimester now and I feel pretty normal again.
Is it a boy or girl?? We just found out it is a GIRL and I can’t even tell you how happy I am. I would have truly been happy either way, just give me a healthy baby. But I’ve always thought I would be a boy Mom… like 2 or 3 boys. Of course I always wanted one of each though- that was the dream! So, I am so over the moon. Tyson is in it for it! Parker has me wrapped around his finger, so I know this little girl will have Tyson wrapped around hers!
Now… I just need to remember ALL the things. I know it will come back to me, but a lot has changed in 6 years! I’ll be asking for a lot of recommendations this time around ; )
Thank you for being a part of this journey! xx
