Well… hi! It sure has been a minute. I feel like I need to bring some value to my first post in a long time, but the truth is, I just want to say hello and catch you up on my crazy life.
It was only a few months ago that both Tyson and I were contemplating a move out of state. We (mostly me) just wanted to something new. Last year I hit a place in my life where I kind of panicked. There was just a big question mark with what was next. More kids? New city? New adventure? My company was in a great place and although that is such a positive thing, it almost felt like it all happened so fast. I had hit so many personal goals of mine so quickly that when I got through them, I was like, wait, now what? And that freaked me out. So I thought, maybe I just need an adventure… maybe a move somewhere new would be exciting.
We began searching Redfin like crazy. Looking for homes anywhere from San Diego and Portland to Charleston and Hawaii. We were all over the place.
Fast forward to July… Tyson and I go out on our first date in a LONG time. I had just listened to this amazing podcast on decisiveness and how unhealthy indecision can be. I was feeling empowered to start making more decisions in life and not waste time contemplating things. So, I proposed to Tyson that if we didn’t find a place in Portland within a month, we were going to move out of state. I also said, I didn’t want to force anything. I wanted it to be something exciting and if it wasn’t super exciting to both of us, we would move. Tyson loved the idea and said OK to that course of action.
A week later, we were running errands in a different part of town and I remembered last minute that there was an open house close by that day. I was a little iffy about the house based off of the listing. When I showed Tyson the listing (a bit over our ideal budget) and told him I was unsure about it, he was kind of like… well, why are we going to go then? This isn’t really in line with our plan about feeling excited.
Nonetheless, we go, we both fall in love with it and we put an offer in that night that was accepted two days later.
One thing I realized throughout this process was how paralyzing indecisiveness can be. And what a time suck it can be too.
There’s a fine balance between letting life unfold the way it’s meant to, but also making a damn decision.
And speaking of making a decision… during this whole process we were connected with a producer for House Hunters on HGTV. I really didn’t understand the show (I was always more of a Fixer Upper fan) and when we learned more about the filming process we were super reluctant. BUT, ultimately I thought to myself, what the heck. What a random experience that will probably never happen again… just go for it. Turns out, for me personally, I loved how much it pushed me out of my comfort zone. I’m going to cringe watching the show when it airs (I think late Fall, early Winter), but I did it. And as uncomfortable as I felt, I made the best of it and pushed through a lot of the anxiety around the whole thing.
So, here I am. Coming down from one of the craziest months I’ve ever experienced and taking that right into t h i r t y t h r e e. You know… I’m not so mad about this age. I haven’t loved my thirties thus far like I know so many others have. But this age feels good. I’m feeling a little more mature and sure of myself, but also holding onto how young I am and how many things there are that I still want to (and can) do.
I still, however, feel mildly like a Grandma though. So on that note, I’m heading to bed!
Lots of love,
Lindsay
